11-07-2016, 08:17 PM
Dan1980 Wrote:I know what you mean. I am always told things will get better, but they don't.
Or the classic, you're still young...there's still time...
I've been getting that for like...10 years lol
I guess it might help if I did live in a city but I can't confirm that. I have been wrong a few times on things.
I mean I suppose I could just go after sex...maybe I'll find some kind of companionship there since chivalry fell on its sword.
artyboy Wrote:Bugger that, don't listen to other people, you only get ahead by doing it yourself. I'm fed up of waiting for others. I've been waiting years to go on a proper holiday but no seems to want to go with me so I'm going to book a holiday and do it on my own if needed (I'm disabled mind you so will need help so it's going to be a challenge to do on my own).
Well it's not so much people say it. It's just the outcomes of things, that leads me to feel this way.
I suppose I could use a vacation, like a real vacation, not just visiting family and so on... I've always felt that me trying to do all that alone would just make me feel worse. I suppose I just need to plan exactly what I am going to do and I guess just make the best of it.
I had a friend who went out to the Western US by himself, he seemed to really enjoy it. I just feel like I would be very lonely, maybe I am wrong and would like it.
Ehhh...and then there is a whole money thing and me wanting to go back to school...
Or I could say fuck that since there is the likelihood that going to school, taking out loans and all that, even if I do get a degree will more than likely not get me a job that makes much more than I do now and then have a pile of debt to pay. Not liking that outcome. They had some younger people they were interviewing about POTUS and one of them said they were going to have $200,000 in student loans. I'm like....you're never going to pay that off... I'm whinning about maybe $20,000 and that's a lot of money to have looming over you. Student loans in this country are ran by a bunch of loan sharks called the government. You cannot get away from it. They will come after everything you have.
Anyway. It is like I know what I want in life, sort of, but I just don't seem to be getting anywhere.
Sometimes, I get so damn pissed off about everything... I feel like I'm circling the drain and just rather say to hell with it all. Fuck having a life.
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