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[InbetweenDreams]

I look at your picture and think, Hmmm...good looking guy.

I read your advice to other people and think, This guy is smart. Insightful. Funny.

Then I read what you say about yourself, and the disconnect sets in. Like, Huh? Are my impressions all wrong?

IDK, I'm hardly qualified to give anyone advice, I don't know anything about meds, though I do think the gym is a great idea. I find that exercise always puts me in a more positive frame of mind. I wish I had more wisdom to impart. Just, I hope you find a way to feel more positive about yourself because it's true that people tend to project the way they feel inside.

Yeah it usually helps me. So here's sort of why I haven't been going. Wednesday night is the swim night where they have a class sort to speak. Well I was kind of put off by the whole thing where I couldn't get people do really help me on the swimming. Like the group does drills but it's old old guy who can't really do much, nothing against him. He's a nice guy and does help but I needed someone back in the summer to swim in the lake with me...so I don't get hit by boats and whatnot...

Well then I was approached by one of the guys at the Early College and a student was interested in learning Phython. Well she has been off and on for the last 2 months and I can't go to the gym and swim because I don't know if she will show up or not.

Then there was the bit where I thought I had a UTI or something...turned out to be too much coffee and went away when I followed the doctor's advice and stopped drinking coffee...then I had stomach trouble for a while... Now I am supposed to go have a colonoscopy done which I am thinking of rescheduling possibly because I am starting to think I don't really need one. So between not feeling well for one bit and then the tutoring I have not done much of anything... Now the time changed (daylight savings time ended). So not going to be doing much after work since it will be dark when I get off, so my only choice now is the gym.

I do think since it has been so long since I have done anything...I basically need to start from square one. Like treadmill stuff and maybe a little bit of swimming just for fun at first. I suppose if the weekends are nice and not cold I don't see any reason why I can't go for a bike ride somewhere...Outside of it being cold in the mornings, the weekends are a good time to ride around this area, lot less traffic.

However, it is really was me being lazy. After the triathlon it was just one for the books sort to speak and was taking a break...well that break lasted a little too long lol