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[MENTION=23097]Insertnamehere[/MENTION] Yeah that does seem to be the case quite often. Not sure what it is because I have met and seen very attractive, wonderful guys (and girls for that matter) who are in the same boat and I'm like wtf? How are you single!?

I know I should just let go of the folks who have paid me with negative comments and remarks about my appearance or those exes who have belittled me. I had one ex tell me he faked everything during sex.... How terrible is that? I mean why would you bullshit your partner about that stuff? I mean I get not being a dick about it but really?

Anyway, I do feel that I know better, I possess the knowledge but "knowing" it on an emotional level, that seems to be the part that flip flops around with me.

I know I was reasonably happy back in the summer when I was staying very active. Although I did get knocked off a bit with some of the set backs with training but I made it through. I cam close to not reaching my goal just over how I felt for the most part.

I guess I do really to do some soul searching....however it is one goes about doing that...