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[baristajedi]

Hi, baristajedi. How do you enjoy this forum so far? Sorry for the reaaaaaaaaaaally delayed reply as I was having some ups and downs. Shit happens.

I was taunted (not bullied for sure) by a few of my classmates back in middle school, where they made fun of me since I was not that masculine. I wouldn't hold grudge against any of them when I looked back, for we all are brainwashed by the idea that men should be blah blah blah.. We are all victims of this naturalized sexual and gender regime. Now I tend to believe that all men are of both sexes (maybe more than just two as i don't want to fall into binary opposition). This reminds me of a quote from The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter, saying that.



What do you think of this one?

Speaking of gay male celebrities, I can't really think of one right now. Let me think... hum... Tim Cook? LOL. I am just a big Apple fanboy.



I like you haircut. It looks fresh.

Hi again Alvin and thanks (about my haircut)

I really like this forum, everyone's really friendly and interesting. Im still lurking in some of the threads.

I'm also really delayed in responding, haven’t been on as much in the last couple of days.

Hope everything's ok!

You sound really grounded about the experiences you've had in school. I understand what it feels like to be taunted and not feel like you fit in. I never felt like I really fit in much in middle or high school.

I think gender is a fascinating topic. So much of it is culturally grounded, but there is something innate to our sense of our own gender as well, and where does that line fall? I have thought a lot about that question through my life because I questioned my gender for a long time. From the time I was about 3 I was telling my parents I thought I was supposed to be born a boy. I never dressed in dresses except the days you have to... Easter, school picture day. But I feel more in tune now with my gender being more on some kind of middle line… I like my female body, but I don't want to dress it up in feminine clothes, I prefer a cleaner cut to my hair, etc. And that dynamic of having kind of a genderfuck style feels really comfortable and right for me.

I love that quote! Ha. And the reverse is also true - we start out before puberty being pretty gender neutral, it's only when society throws rules onto us that we start looking like girls/boys before puberty.

Ah nice one, a brainy successful guy too, Tim Cook.