Anti-Depressants

[IanSaysHi]

I guess what I am getting at, those of you who either have knowledge of these medications, have been on or are taking these medications, what's your experience been? Should I take the leap of faith or find a better way to cope?

My personal experience is the medication I’ve tried when depression hits is more of a placebo/comfort blanket to feel like I’m doing *something* to try and end the depression, although I have never really felt a positive change from the medication and the doctors always say it takes a long time to have any effect. In the end I kind of just weather the storm until I can cope on my own and it passes. Some people may read that as ‘well maybe it was the medication helping you weather the storm!’ but I really don’t think it helps with the immediate days/weeks which are always the hardest. The only good thing about them was they made me really drowsy, when I have an episode I crave being asleep (when I feel safe/switched off) so this helped.

I’ve come to accept now that time I truly is  only healer for my episodes. I just remind myself I always get through them and just get through each individual day (I find during depression it’s better to focus on the smallest goals and just take each day as it comes). I find it really really hard to be sociable and internalise as soon as a bout starts, luckily I have some really close friends who know when this happens I’m not being rude, I am in a way trying to shield them from what I see as the less fun version of the friend they usually know. However towards the end of an episode I have to start talking to people close to me again to help me get back to normality.

@InbetweenDreams in summary, I don’t know if any of this helps but one thing I’ve said here before is if any of us ever feel low, depressed etc - we are not alone x