Not Easy Being Ugly

[yal]

I've tried the clubs, the bars, the parks, the baseball team, online and nothing works. Just seems like the guys in my area between the ages of 21-35 just don't find me good looking. I am frustrated! To make matters worse a potential client really put me down this week! I am to the point where I am going to say screw it with everything!

Hi,
I think you have it easy!
I am a 39 year old guy who has been married for 15 years,and yet at the age of 39 with no gay relationships what so ever,i have said to my self" enough is enough" and have started to visit gay sites.
Infact this site is the only gay site i have been to in my life.
My problem is that i know i am gay,but can not approach men or even go to gay bars and clubs since they are "pro" sort of speak.
I am looking for a man who is atleast 20 years my senior so that i can with him,"come out".
I am feeling so frustrated that your feelings to me is just water under the bridge.
I know what men expect women to do in bed,but can not physicaly(even though i want to) do that for a man,infact i am not gay i think,i am a woman traped in a man's body,since i do not want to be the man in any relationship.
I run a good business and am well off finacialy.
I just don't know where to start??? I don't know who to trust??
If the first guy who takes me to bed wants to bum me,i will probably break his neck,but if a guy with a wealth of experiance starts me off on trivial acts or a "biginers guide to being gay" then i will stck with him.
I am not english and have more hair than average english guys so this too makes me feel that could be a handicap for me.
Can any of you guys help me out me on this?
At this moment in time i can only make friends with much older guys! or a guy who is in the same boat as me!