What does this mean?

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It seems normal to me - you like different aspects and possibilities from both sexes women can't fuck you without toys, so therefore when you consider the possibilities of a male fantasy it's almost bound to crop up.

Some people change over time between roles, start out bottom and end up top (pitcher/catcher) it just develops over time depending on the person and what you're in the mood for. It's hard to give hard answers on things like this because it's really just a unique preference. Chances are if you're good with women you will eventually get more than a few opportunities and offers to be top; it's considered quite a catch...