Being a gay couple with children

[fenris]

To have no children for me is the one and only thing at being gay what makes me really sad .... and angry ... and sometimes feel very alone. My Partner don´t know ... because I know this feelings would make him sad, too.
A straight friend of mine knows it ... and say´s ""use" mine .. if sometimes i have some.. we need a uncle ..and sometimes in future a 2 grandfather", because his father died" .. but its not the same.
I was in a adoptions-office here ... they said .. that its easier to let children by her own alcoholic father then give them to a gay-couple" .. and I don´t fight.. this is not to fight for.

Problem 2 is that I want a boy .. and if you go to a adopt-office and " I´m gay - I want a boy"... they ask you for other problems and sends you home.

And now comes my Idea : I haven´t any idea !
For me its not nessesary to get a child... but If I try to search .. maybe in the net... like father want´s son ... there come only this "wanna f*** me... now and here"....
hopeless...