Out of Abusive Relationship - 2 years and still lost

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I'm glad to hear that things are starting to turn around for you! A lot of folks here hit the nail on the head when they talked about finding something different to do. What's important is that you find things to do that you enjoy. It seems as though there is a lot of creativity there with you but you don't know what to do with it or might even feel as though it isn't good enough for anything. It may even be that you start something and then just toss it away because it's not worth it to you. I'm being rather general but regardless, what was the past should stay in the past. That's cliche and easier said than done, but the past teaches us to overcome and makes us stronger.

Nobody else will be HIM as you have mentioned, but you have to tell yourself that this is ok! It's okay because you will find a relationship when you least expect it with someone who treats you properly. I understand that right now the thought of that is just too much to bear. So dont think about it. Just start believing in yourself and let everything fall into place.