Fears

[TimeBandit]

Thanks for the encouragement guys.

Maybe I'm just going through a downspell because the anniverary of my mom's death is coming up, but I'm thinking about a lot of things and this fear of a relationship thing is bothering me a lot. For about the past month or so, every time I even think about dating or being in a relationship with a guy, I feel sick. I can't seem to lose the belief that all men are disgusting and flakey and will leave at the first sign of someone "better." I know deep down that is irrational, because I'm not like that, and it would be pretty arrogant of me to assume that I'm the *only* decent gay guy alive. LOL... thinking of it that way is pretty absurd, isn't it?

I don't have the first clue how to find a decent gay guy. Any takers here from Toronto? j/k