10-21-2010, 08:06 PM
nakatsusan Wrote:actually I have not really thought about my self as part of that sex. yes, once i tried to imagine myself in gay sex but (sorry, don't want to insult anyone) I felt sick nor active nor passive idea was good for me. but still have this great attraction toward beautiful men.
don't know why but I thought the same. possessed - possess ? thats kind of weird. maybe I'm too romantic person and my word of relationship is second half not the possessed.
You said in your first post:
I can't understand my sexuality. I need some help, if there is some signs or manual to recognize your self better ?
Further you said:
I tried some gay porn and the result is the same I may watch porn with fireman and have no reaction (even might fill uncomfortable) but if there is a character with body I like I may even cum couple of times.
These sorts of questions would lead one to think you were asking us to tell you if you are gay, bi or straight.
I attempted to answer in a way that would leave it open for you to decide for yourself.
The point of my post was to explain that 'gay' is not just a sex act. I tried to use examples that at least one would apply (top or Bottom) which a pretty safe bet that one or the other would apply, I tried to enforce the emotional content over the sex acts attempting to let you see the difference between sex and 'sexual orientation' in a broader range.
So remove sex, remove porn, remove jacking off. How do you feel about the potential of spending your life with a man? How do you feel about spending your life with a woman?
Living with them, sharing your life - what kind of emotional feelings are evoked when you think about one or the other?
There in lies your answer.