10-22-2010, 04:39 PM
Everyone has fantasies. It is sometimes better not act on those that hurt others. However, for whatever reasons, you are where you are and being about your age when I came out I know how difficult a place it can be. I did not feel qualified to distinguish want from need and was stuck for many years in that difficult half-world.
You are now communicating with a community that includes a lot of gay men. At some point you are probably going to meet one and there will be mutual interest. You may even have sex and find out what it's like having your cock sucked. The thrill of that is different from the same act carried out within a relationship where you both love each other.
As BA says, whatever you do from here on has consequences. I am sorry to say that things will probably get worse before they get better.
You are now communicating with a community that includes a lot of gay men. At some point you are probably going to meet one and there will be mutual interest. You may even have sex and find out what it's like having your cock sucked. The thrill of that is different from the same act carried out within a relationship where you both love each other.
As BA says, whatever you do from here on has consequences. I am sorry to say that things will probably get worse before they get better.
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