What I have longed for...

[72jay]

Every since I can remember I have had thoughts about being close to another guy. .... To this day I dream of what it would be like to hold and caress another man, and have him do the same to me. - But here I am...41 years old,

I could say the the exact same thing ... except those thoughts/feelings started somewhere in my 20's
(For me the feelings are more of being close with another guy..rather than just seaxual...but i also have feelings/attraction to women, nothing sexual tho )