Is It Possible To Be Gay

[marshlander]

I understand that you can feel the way you do. There is a huge machine at work to make us think that what we do to share affection and love is dirty. It has been operating all our lives and has left an indelible imprint.

Don't be too hard on yourself. When you find someone really special you may well want to offer yourself in ways that don't seem possible to you now. The three kinds of acts you mentioned are also not the exclusive prerogative of gay people. Straights do all those things too, but it never gets mentioned and they don't get the brickbats that come our way.