Is It Possible To Be Gay

[eastofeden]

I have to wonder how conditioning plays into the picture....is there sexual abuse somewhere in the past? I almost hate to ask because it can be hidden as in repressed and I dont' want to invade anyone's safe space and one of the ways it can manifest itself is avoidance of sex...lack of interest. The idea of sex in the subconscious can be symbolic of what happened and avoided if the person is not ready to deal with it.

I didn't have sexual abuse but I had physical abuse (actually I did get raped when I was a teenager but it was nothing to me as I just left my body) and the way it manifested in my case was I didnt' want anyone touching me...and if anyone touched me accidentally or slapped me on the back my reaction was intense and swift...I also felt repulsed by any kind of affection that included any touching. For many years I just thought I didn't want to be touched because that was the way I was....