Gay in an intolerant area..

[Dville118]

Thanks everyone for your comments. I've read them all and given it some thought.

I have no attachment to this house or this neighborhood.. in fact I revile the place.

Just last week I spoke to a realtor about selling, it's viable, but tight. I may wind up renting if I do this.. and that's something I CAN do..

it brings up a broader question for me that's actually been eating at me since I moved here to Atlanta 4 years ago, and has been moreso in the last year now that i'm.. well out to myself and more honest about my feelings.

I suppose I have this urge to.. start over.. ya know to move to another city and meet new people and just right off the bat identify myself as gay and be open about it.. rather than trying to come out and re-invent an existing image..

I've looked around at other cities, I even applied for jobs in a few places last week when the CEO became very angry at me because of something silly. (She's stressed lately.. economy is tight and upper management is worried.. but we're hanging on from what I can tell.. either way it puts you on thin ice with her to do ANYTHING lately that's inconvenient.)

I still like the idea of sorts.. I've looked at Ft. lauderdale, charleston, a few other places but nothing really really seriously. I have to go where jobs are.. I don't want an enourmous paycut and I'm paid very well where I am.

So I guess the borader question is.. should I move to another city? or stick with this one? If I stay here.. I can rent a house or a condo somewhere in town.. but I'll still be close enough to my "old life" that things will follow me I have a feeling.

One thing I'm afraid of is running from myself. You know as well as I do that if you run from your shadow it always follows you. The only way to get away is to turn off the lights.

Also, Aaycle, it's funny you should mention tofu and hummus lol. I gave up meat about 2 months ago. I don't have anything against it, I just don't eat it at all on a daily basis. If I go out with people I will but.. on my own.. I don't. I LOVE hummus.

They will always outgun me here. My neighbor stopped me from raking leaves the other day to talk to me about hunting and how he shot some deer in the woods behind his house the other day.

talking to me about sports or hunting or things like that.. you're better served to talk to a tree. It'll be more interested and knowledgeable.