I'm ready to cry!!!

[Sil]

Thanks a lot. It's really beginning to take a toll on me, and I am trying to figure out how to not think about it at all. Sometimes I stay up all night and just watch him sleep. And what's even worse is the fact that I feel like I should tell him to just get discharged. Should I just be honest and tell him how I really feel? I just don't want to feel guilt that I ended his career.

No problem...

I can easily imagine how it would, if I was in that same situation I'd be torn. I've found with various worries over the years that there are only limited successes in supressing emotions; you could become more active and focus on yourself, but there is no easy solution, and it takes a lot of work to 'forget'.

*sighs* I don't know what to say but I do know this - having him discharged from a job he clearly wants to do will not benefit either of you and cause a lot of resentment on his part. You would be making your decision for him, and possibly jeapordising his future; which while in the interest of his safety, can come to no good. I would want to do the same as well, because I loved him (in theory, I might add). Feeling guilt over it will be a given, something that will happen regardless. The more I think about it the harder it is.

Tell him how you feel, and what all this means to you; he may not even know. *hugs*