11-24-2010, 07:28 AM
I was considering myself straight since I ever knew the concept of sexuality. I don't remember when that was, but let's say it was a very long time ago. I was 13 years old when I had feelings for a couple of boys that went to my junior high school. I was a bit baffled by this and I ignored this for quite some time. I figured it was a phase and I didn't believe I was gay. Sometime in 2001, I learned more about homosexuality through health class. I told myself one day that it wouldn't matter which sexual orientation I truly was.
As the 2000's progressed, I thought I had "gay tendencies" and I ignored this. I was pretty much afraid of this and I kept telling myself that I was straight. By 2007, my best friend (who would become my partner a year later) was telling me more and more about homosexuality. I was coming to a conclusion that I was gay, but I wasn't 100% sure on this. Then my best friend becomes my boyfriend in early 2008 and I come to a conclusion that I'm gay. This is not definitive and I'm still a bit unsure. I'm totally in love with this guy and I was never in love with a guy before. I was thinking that I was perhaps bisexual or pansexual. I also thought I was maybe exclusively into my partner only and he was the only guy I was attracted to while I was attracted to mainly the opposite sex.
I totally ruled out the fact that I was bisexual as I found the opposite sex to be pretty unappealing to me. I came to a final conclusion and that final conclusion was that I'm gay by 2009 and this year. However, there were some problems with that. My partner considered himself bi and then claimed to be an "ex-gay" by early 2010... he was arguing with me about my sexuality. He said he was young and he told me something like "so I was 15 and I really convinced you that you're gay?"... however I knew was, it's just that I never told anyway. These days my ex now considers himself straight, but that's a different story.
Yes, it's a pretty long story. I'm gay and that's pretty much it. I hope this helps ya out.
As the 2000's progressed, I thought I had "gay tendencies" and I ignored this. I was pretty much afraid of this and I kept telling myself that I was straight. By 2007, my best friend (who would become my partner a year later) was telling me more and more about homosexuality. I was coming to a conclusion that I was gay, but I wasn't 100% sure on this. Then my best friend becomes my boyfriend in early 2008 and I come to a conclusion that I'm gay. This is not definitive and I'm still a bit unsure. I'm totally in love with this guy and I was never in love with a guy before. I was thinking that I was perhaps bisexual or pansexual. I also thought I was maybe exclusively into my partner only and he was the only guy I was attracted to while I was attracted to mainly the opposite sex.
I totally ruled out the fact that I was bisexual as I found the opposite sex to be pretty unappealing to me. I came to a final conclusion and that final conclusion was that I'm gay by 2009 and this year. However, there were some problems with that. My partner considered himself bi and then claimed to be an "ex-gay" by early 2010... he was arguing with me about my sexuality. He said he was young and he told me something like "so I was 15 and I really convinced you that you're gay?"... however I knew was, it's just that I never told anyway. These days my ex now considers himself straight, but that's a different story.
Yes, it's a pretty long story. I'm gay and that's pretty much it. I hope this helps ya out.
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