How did you know?

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I didn't necessarily "know" when in elementary school, but I knew I was different. I mainly had guy friends and did guy things, but there was that gay streak in me that would lean feminine. I loved being around girls during a time when girls had "coodies", and I'd listen to girly music. I also had a huge collection of beanie babies/stuffed animals while all the other boys were into hotwheels and batman.

It wasn't until I was probably 12 when I finally figured out that I that I was mesmerized by the male physique.
I remember the first time I actually tried looking for gay porn- I was so nervous, and I was literally shaking. It was a whole other side of me that I never looked into.... Plus my mother/brother could of walked in at any moment.