12-29-2010, 11:10 PM
Ok. So my story.
Here goes.
I've always preferred the company of guys- Ive always chosen to spend time with my male friends and tend to avoid the company of women. I have never been close to women and have never hAd a relationship that lasts more than3 months, as I get bored and irritated with them. I don't think I'm afraid of commitment - I just don't want it and bow out before I have he chance.
As a kind of contrast I have always felt close to guys - most of my friends are male, I am very close
to only a few and still nobody knows that I like guys in anywAy more than a friend. It has only been in the past 6 months where I have started to develop strong gay feelings- I am seeing guys as more than just friends. I am getting more than a crush, and I am now really yearning for male companionship, but my catch 22... Is that I have told nobody how I feel or that I think I am gay. And if nobody knows, then how can they have the chance to reciprocate? I'm going round in circles and dnt know where to go. I fear that- although close- none of my friends will understand.
So there is where I'm at. I hope it mAkes sense as it's not been read back and is straight from the heart to this stupid touchscreen keyboard to this forum. Over and out.
Here goes.
I've always preferred the company of guys- Ive always chosen to spend time with my male friends and tend to avoid the company of women. I have never been close to women and have never hAd a relationship that lasts more than3 months, as I get bored and irritated with them. I don't think I'm afraid of commitment - I just don't want it and bow out before I have he chance.
As a kind of contrast I have always felt close to guys - most of my friends are male, I am very close
to only a few and still nobody knows that I like guys in anywAy more than a friend. It has only been in the past 6 months where I have started to develop strong gay feelings- I am seeing guys as more than just friends. I am getting more than a crush, and I am now really yearning for male companionship, but my catch 22... Is that I have told nobody how I feel or that I think I am gay. And if nobody knows, then how can they have the chance to reciprocate? I'm going round in circles and dnt know where to go. I fear that- although close- none of my friends will understand.
So there is where I'm at. I hope it mAkes sense as it's not been read back and is straight from the heart to this stupid touchscreen keyboard to this forum. Over and out.
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