Please help me overcome

[JRom]

If someone were to enter me without my permission I would and could literally kill them, it being a hard thing for you to defend yourself can be changed, do what i did at 14 the first time I got beat up,i started krav maga 6 years in training. in the position you were you could have done any damage needed or easily killed with intelligent defense. just an option and opinion. also you could send this dirtbag to jail because that horror story sounds like rape to me.

Funny you mention that. I did study Krav for several years. But without exaggerating, when he entered me, the pain was so unbearable, I was literally paralyzed. I couldn't do anything at all. I can't explain it, other than it was truly unbelievable. That's why I started crying immediately. I was in hysterics. If I met him now, I could crush him no doubt. It's hard now for me to accept that it seems I was raped. I feel even more like a woman right now. This isn't good.