New to this and I need help!

[Michael]

I will ad that it's a good idea to expand your gene poll a bit and find some gay friends. If you suround yourself with straight guys all the time this is going to repeat itself over and over. It's only natural for you to find yourself turning towards the people who you are comfortable with, have things in common and all the rest.

Unfortunately, you're also setting yourself up for rejection and interpreting things to fullfill your wishes that might not really be what you think they are. When you want something so bad you tend to see things how you wish them to be and not what they really are. Straight friends DO hug, rough house, say silly things, check out each others equipment, slap each others ass and a gazillion other things we like to think of as being "gay".

Mix it up a bit and find some gay friends who might be more willing to respond to what you're giving out. The last thing you want to do is start freaking out your straight friends by mooning over them all the time.