isnt being gay kinda lonely

[Mark]

Right my biggest thing about being gay is like, the whole marriage and kids.


I mean I cant be the only one growing up thinking "WOW im gonna be this have a gorgeous wife 3 kids, twin boys and a girl, wife driving a people carrier, id have some smart car or a 4x4, have some gorgeous house in the country, maybe a little farm, christmases with the whole family including parents etc" and now even though I can have parts it won't be as grand or acceptable if you get me? Like the kids thing, I know theres adoption but im not sure if its fair on the kid having 2 gay parents, as I know personally in the school i went to they would be ripped apart.


Also the fact that my friends can just go out and pull basically anywhere? But then I have the whole is he gay, I cant try if he isnt how do I find out etc.


Those aspects are VERY lonely.. Also knowing I cant jsut like any guy as if they are straight and it will never happen it would be heart wrenching..


Anyway im blabbing on, guess im trying to say it can be very lonely.