I just don't get it

[marshlander]

When I was married I often caricatured everyday life in my own mind as warfare with occasional ceasefires. The problems began during the engagement, but I was too stupid to take note of all the warnings and my head was too full of religious indoctrination to give any consideration as to why those problems were there.

Yes, the bits worked at first and my desire to become a father was fulfilled. We loved our children, but I could not give her the kind of love she wanted and deserved. I'll tell you that I was so screwed up that I seriously thought sex was merely an advertising con trick, a way of selling stuff! :redface: It was not until I reached middle age that I met and fell in love with a man and finally realised how rewarding and powerful and just plain wonderful it is when love and sex happen in the same relationship.

In all likelihood, if current research is anything to go by, your friend was born gay. If I read between the lines you and he experimented? Despite the nutters in the ex-gay movement, you won't have turned him. He's still gay. There is some evidence of some fluidity in sexual orientation throughout life, but that usually is an expression of little shifts this way or that along the bisexual portion of the scale.

I'm sorry to hear that you are so angry. It sounds like you are feeling betrayed after being given some hope of your feelings being requited. How is it helping not to talk to him?