I just don't get it

[Rosie]

So, I'm not a gay man but I am a gay woman so hopefully I can still give you a little insight. First, no matter how much I want/need sex, how drunk I am, how long I've been single for -- a man is just not going to cut it. The need to be intimate with a man just does not arise. For example, I want to have a child and yesterday I went to meet a friend's week old baby. He is sooooo tiny and so precious, my maternal urges were going into overdrive. After that I went out to a bar with friends (not the baby's parents) and got quite intoxicated, there were men throwing themselves at me (apparently I send out NO gay signals???) and I never thought "Oh, wow I could go and have one night with him and have the baby I want!" -- even though I was drunk, want a child, wanted sex, and my girlfriend is at home in another city at the moment. I DID think, "Damn, she is really sexy. I think I'd like a piece of that." quite a few times, keeping in mind that it would never happen because I'm in a committed relationship. So, what I'm trying to not-so-eloquently convey is that if you're gay no amount of urge to reproduce, drunkenness, or flat out really really being in the mood :redface: is going to make you want someone of the opposite sex.
Also, I was in love with my best friend who is a straight woman. I was absolutely distraught over her for years, constantly battling with myself over whether I should tell her how I feel. Then I realized that she is an amazing friend, we have had so many amazing times together, and our friendship is just so light and free that I didn't want to jeopardize it. So I forced myself to get over her, and I have.