I just don't get it

[leslie]

Well I just don't understand where you are coming from. To my way of thinking, in every embrace, in every kiss, there is a promise. Unstated or otherwise, it's there. You cannot feel one way on Monday, then feel another on Tuesday. I have come to grips with what happened and have moved on in the sense that I do not want to pursue a romantic relationship any more because I only have one heart and it's been pretty beat up, but we are in contact still. Haha after multiple texts, calls and doorbell rings left unanswered, I had to let the boy know he wasn't 86ed from my life I was surprised in fact that he totally wigged out more from my silence than I did from his betrayal. He is a few years younger than I am so he has a lot to learn about the human heart. So do I apparently, but at least I admit that. But to suggest that it was "in a pinch"?? Hmm...think not. I don't believe in stereotypes so I don't buy into to flesh for flesh's sake when the libido gets going vis a vis his orientation, whatever that may be. He remains my best friend. I would be lost without him and all, so I let him back in. He was a mess when I told him to piss off and never contact me again. I never ever want to hear about his conquests though. I can't hear that for a while. I need some time, a lot of time for that.