Spoiled myself.

[Marvinteck]

I can relate to 2 parts of this story.. ill first tackle the "straight" friend thing..
Me and my best friend in school began to get close at about 14 and were fooling around by 15.. it took til I was 18 to admit I was gay but he wouldn't.. he'd always instigate the sexual situations and without meaning to be blunt, he came quick he got that excited.. but we never talked about it.. he always joked "you fancy me" and I'd reply "no I dont were just having fun"
Then something bad happened in general (not between us) and we lost contact as quick as a snap.. we had little contact for a year.. then eventually I tried to.make contact.. he told me he didn't want to know me.. he then told my friend to.see me again would bring up too many emotions.. we concluded he probably loved me but was in denial.. and thats when I realised.. that I loved him and I blew my chance..

Although not entirely the same.. I think this is quite relateable and I just want you to.know I regret with.all my heart not talking to him about it while I had the chance..

Secondly..due to something I'd rather not mention I gain little pleasure from being touched.. let alone blown or masturbated Nd I derive all my pleasure from pleasuring someone else.. so its okay, you're not alone :-)

Our storys are more similiar than you think. I met my friend in elementary school. We were like two peas in a pod. Once we hit puberty we started fooling around on his suggestion right around the age of 14. This went on for 3-4 years. We justified it because we were just "experimenting". I came from a conservative christian background so I always used to feel guilty afterwards. Even back then I was never able to get off. My senior year in high school I moved out of the trailer park and started going to church. I didnt see my friend very often after that. I eventually broke off the sex part of the relationship due to religious reasons. I graduated from high school when i was 17 and moved off to college. My friend and I lost contact after that. I was so guilt ridden I tried to kill myself my first winter out in college. I wrote my friend a letter and blamed him for getting me involved in the sex. He did used pressure me to have sex till I caved and gave him what he wanted. That is one of the main reasons we stopped hanging out.

I ran from my sexuality for ten years till I came out as bisexual last fall. My friend was supportive of me when I told him. He recently moved down here from NY for a fresh start in life and we started fooling around again. Funny that you mention about your friend cumming quick because he was so excited. My "straight" friend lasted all of five minutes our first time back together.