Sincerely need advice on where I stand sexually (very long)

[fredv3b]

You haven't really talked about how you felt about your girlfriends romantically? Were you romantically attracted to them?

I think it is clear how you stand sexually, from what you say you found sex with men to be far better than sex with women. That said there is far more to being gay (and life in general). I think that you need to work on unlearning that sex and relationships is 'wrong' and then seriously think about whether you could be happy in a relationship with a man.