Sincerely need advice on where I stand sexually (very long)

[bariuke]

Again, I can relate to that. Until I accepted myself I could never really see a guy in the street and think he was hot. Somehow, now, I can. And I had similar thoughts with my fantasies too.

Well I'm very happy to hear this. I have found myself the same way. Since I have started accepting who I am I've been seeing guys differently. Guys are looking increasingly more attractive, and girls increasingly less. When I first realized that I was staring at a guy and was getting turned on, I shook my head and thought "wait, did that really happen?" I looked again... Yup, it really happened.