Why the attitude?

[Jay]

I think in some areas it might having something to do with if you have straight friends, etc., that you want to be perceived as a top because for those to which gay sex is strange, they probably get the top role more than they get the bottom role. I can't say I've seen top/bottom prejudices in gay guys, but I've definitely heard comments from straight people, so can see how that might rub off on some people.

I think I have been influenced heavily by the heterosexual sex and relationship. In heterosexual, there is a guy and a girl. A straight guy typically carries the role of being masculine and dominant. Well, I see myself as the 'girl' in a relationship. I am masculine but I enjoy the idea of being dominated and guarded by another guy.

But as I've mentioned in a different thread, I started to have interest in becoming a top but the intention is to dominate the other one in bed. That other one needs to be a bit of 'feminine' so I can project my manliness and masculinity. I admit that this whole thing sounds somewhat 'sexist'. But I hope it doesn't make me a bad person or such. It's just that I like the idea and concept of dominance to occur in a bedroom.