09-10-2011, 06:06 AM
Don't be so hard on yourself, sweetheart. There are a lot of issues you bring up in this little post, none of them are easily answered either.
The anxiety and self-esteem stuff is something we all struggle with to an extent at some point. It's easy to get into that mindset because most of us are our own worst critic. There's nothing wrong with being the "nice guy," and you're way too young to be giving up hope.
As to doing something about the anxiety and loneliness, well that's tough; I'm not sure what you can do. Why do you not get to see your new friends as much as you seem to want to? Lots of people move away from home for college, so there are probably more than a few people feeling the sting of loneliness around campus. Maybe you need a hobby of some kind to keep you occupied, preferably one that involves a social aspect.
The anxiety and self-esteem stuff is something we all struggle with to an extent at some point. It's easy to get into that mindset because most of us are our own worst critic. There's nothing wrong with being the "nice guy," and you're way too young to be giving up hope.
As to doing something about the anxiety and loneliness, well that's tough; I'm not sure what you can do. Why do you not get to see your new friends as much as you seem to want to? Lots of people move away from home for college, so there are probably more than a few people feeling the sting of loneliness around campus. Maybe you need a hobby of some kind to keep you occupied, preferably one that involves a social aspect.