Sexual Displeasure

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i am very happy with where i live, and what i do, i am happy with who i am and what i have done

This is important.

it always seems like little more than a chore at worst or simply maintaining my body at best.

Don't place such a high importance on sex, it's not the be all and end all.

i have tried to intellectualize the entire process of engaging in sexual intercourse so as to rationalize my conflict and find a solution,

Sex is primal, you can't rationalise it, you can't intellectualise it, there is no solution if you aren't a sexual being. Having said that, I think that perhaps you find it hard to deal with because it is hard for you to find someone that is like you, that can find 100% joy in love rather than sex.

Stop torturing yourself and trying to be something that you can't be, enjoy what you have, enjoy what you do, enjoy who you are and everything will just fall into place.