Need to get this out

[Aester]

I do not get ears piercing or piercing in general but its your body. When i got my dreads my dad was flippin', he said to me after all studies and how good I've been have i decided to become a junkie (Although i smoke weed sometimes but I'm far from addicted and he knowns noone) and jabbin' about some other stuff i don't quite remember. I laughed at him for a bit and told him its just freaking fucking hair and if i was smoking what has that to do with my hair? He is the kinda guy that goes to Church everyday and generally a bit Flanders (Simpson) alike but very strict. I still love him and WHO he is but not exactly WHAT he is. I am sure i can't ever tell him about being gay, it saddens me but not as much as my brother. I have gotten very fond with his girl friend and she suspect that i am gay, since i barely never gets out and never had a real girlfriend, i heard her and my brother when i laid fake sleeping in the living room when they were in the kitchen she said and tried to convince him that i were gay and we should accept that but my brother just kept denying it, after several times hes voice shook. I had also have had some anti homosexual conversations with him where i just agree. I'm still closeted and i don't sincerely know how to get out specially to him since we are really close. We hang out many times a week and sometimes tops 10 times a year i hang along with him to do graffiti and other stuff.