A bit lost

[reytla]

Hello,
To me it sounds like you have not been able to forgive yourself for the sexual act you did which lead to cheating on your partner... I think if you were able to forgive yourself for what you did you would find it more easier and whatnot to continue on with your current relationship... If there are no flaws within this relationship then by all means continue on because it is silly to sortt of loose interest.... Sex can be a healthy part of a balanced relationship and to be honest in my opinonb if you have sex regularly with your partner such as once a week you will continually explore each others needs... I have often understood cheating as a sign that one partner is not giving enoughy sexual intercourse to another.. Of course all our sex drives are different but if you have one higher than the other then giving a little bit of pleasure to relieve it isnt a bad thing....

If its going good mister dont stop with it as you may never know what the next fella could be like

kindest regards

zeon x

Thanks for your words of wisdom. I do believe that I need to find it within myself to move on and forgive what I did. It is just hard as I have a habit of being extremely hard on myself. I do still feel relatively inexperienced with the whole sexual aspect though and the act does still freak me out a little...but I do enjoy it... Our relationship does have its flaws. All relationships do I suppose. I just find it hard not to be able to have an intellectually stimulating conversation with my partner and to share my interests with him.

Oh gosh you can't afford to turn down any chance that comes your way, scholarship's aren't given out so easily and if you earn one then you've got to do it, because if you don't years down the line you may live to regret it. If your relationship is firm then there will be no problem, but if it's rocky then the separation will have an affect. Your impending scholarship may be a way of testing your commitment to your relationship. Either way don't turn down a chance to improve your career... Have you given any thought which university you will be studying at in Britain??

It will prove a challenge but in a small way I am looking forward to being given some freedom to be myself again and perhaps to find myself. I am hoping to go the Uni of Edinburgh or Warwick.