A bit lost

[zeon]

Thanks for your words of wisdom. I do believe that I need to find it within myself to move on and forgive what I did. It is just hard as I have a habit of being extremely hard on myself. I do still feel relatively inexperienced with the whole sexual aspect though and the act does still freak me out a little...but I do enjoy it... Our relationship does have its flaws. All relationships do I suppose. I just find it hard not to be able to have an intellectually stimulating conversation with my partner and to share my interests with him.



It will prove a challenge but in a small way I am looking forward to being given some freedom to be myself again and perhaps to find myself. I am hoping to go the Uni of Edinburgh or Warwick.

Alot of people can be hard on themselves because they want to give everything and take nothing however a relationship blooms if it is give and take.... Dont be hard up on yourself and going to get freedom you can do in a relationship as well... The key to it is to trust him the way he trusts you.. Of course he has given you credit for being honest about the fling so as far as thats concerned its done and dusted just know not to let it happen again unless of course you guys have an open relationship.. The old saying what he dont know wont hurt isnt true because the one who did the crime is the one who suffers as guilt eats up from inside... If a relationship didnt have flaws then in my eyes its fake... Yep completely fake just another barbie and ken bits of plastic... Plus a little flaw is healthy as it builds up the relationship to be stronger and clears out any concerning debris along the way... By the sounds of it you got a fantastic relationship and i wouldnt say it is him with the issue by your description i would say you have the problem... Maybe assess your own demands and needs and base it on there as evidence to back up what you feel inside but seriously if the relationship is beautiful then why dampen it?

kindest regards

zeon x