Might be gay and I'm really scared

[BYoNexus]

Hi,

I'm new to the forum, I've been struggling with what my sexuality is for about 13 years now. I think it's possible that I could be gay but I'm not completely sure. The possibility of being gay really scares me and i would be very disappointed if it turned out to be the case. Let me be clear I fully support all gay rights it's just that I never wanted that life for me. My plan would be to never act on my feelings and live my life alone, I'm not sure if it's the best idea, but it's the only one I've got. If anyone has any thoughts I'd really appreciate your comments.

First welcome to the forum!

I'll give you some advice. I had originally planned to do what you are planning (Never act on your feelings and live life alone), and I'll tell you one thing, thats a very bad idea. I was closeted since the beginning of High School, and it wasn't so bad the first few years.
However, after high school, not acting on my feelings started to really effect me negatively. I picked up a couple of bad habits like smoking and drugs, and became really depressed. Eventually, I said enough was enough and Came Out this year, and let me tell you, if I hadn't done so, I would've eventually gotten suicidal. Maybe not in the near future, but I could tell that it was heading towards that point.

So, my advice would be to NOT punish yourself for being you, because You'll live to regret it. Big time.