Was there a moment you realized that you were gay?

[gfxtwin]

There are some great posts in here. I loved reading your stories.

I think I may slightly be on the down low, but then again I'm acting the way I feel like I should anyway because I live with my grandparents and they don't ever want to nor should they talk about gay issues with me.

I'm glad to hear that some of you have found a deep love for someone. I've never felt like I was in love with anyone. Hopefully this changes. I've always felt more of an attraction to the sexual organs and less to the people attached. Might have something to do with being exposed to porn and sex at an early age, who knows. I'm not addicted to sex, though, because I never want to have it. Especially not since the feeling in my genitals left. I don't have any sexual desires at all anymore. Now I'm afraid that if I do finally love someone, like another man, and I do have sex with him, it won't mean anything to either of us because my parts have as much sensitivity as a finger.

What should I do? See a doctor? Take Viagra (I can get a boner, just not one that is sensitive)? Could it be the anti-psychotics that I'm taking? My lack of external stimulation (use it or lose it)? Has anyone heard of this happening before?