Is it normal to become increasingly more flamboyant over time?

[gfxtwin]

That could be a part of it. I remember having some of that internalized homophobia too. But there was a time when I couldn't slur my S's, where my voice was deeper, my bodytype was more mesomorphic, my hands seemed far more masculine and my face had a more masculine look too. I've never been big into sports, and part of this could be due to inactivity and weight gain, though. I also have the sneaking suspicion that smoking pot for a few years before these changes occured caused an increase in estrogen, as it is known to do. The worst part of all these changes is the fact that my genitals are numb. They feel like they did before I hit puberty or something. It sucks because I don't have any outlet. Does anyone know how I can restore sensitivity? Do any of you know someone who has had this problem? Any remedies or advice helps. I'm afraid I might have to round up enough cash for a medical checkup.