Question for people from conservative families

[sneakyc25]

I am not out to my family, but they seem ok for the most part. My dad jokes about how he is my mom's "gay friend" as he goes shopping with her and picks out clothes he knows she will like. But my mother is rather racist and her best friend from college turned out to be a lesbian. She makes slurs that I don't like from time to time. I think in my immediate family my mother would be the only one I am worried about.

Plus, I do believe hearing their hate over the years (and living with my brother he will say "that's so gay!") it has sorta screwed me up a little. Sometimes I honestly feel like less of a man for being gay. Just more shit I have to overcome throughout my life. Since I am not out they haven't directed any hate toward me specifically though.