How old were you when you went on your first gay date?

[HollandofFrance]

me ,never

i thought i was gay when i was 18

then lost virginity to a nice woman around 25 then few days or weeks later started hearing about aids out there became afraid of sex and people

politics became in the news alot and all the arguing was in media and life and a lot of hate out there on both sides or something

i had one gay friend i think visit my apt on the 80s i mean only one and yet i used to hang out with a man who later i found out was gay who was in the church who was mainly a creep i should have avoided really

then i became more isolated and avoided people and lately felt if i deny it ill just get angrier so why bother anymore

im so old i feel its better i have one child born before i die but everything seems hard

what will happen next i don't know- probably nothing but who knows

some people on some gay forum have turned me off so i feel like avoiding even the internet

i hate the gay bars i guess

maybe ill become a monk-mainly tired