Just getting anxious

[Person66]

First of all it sounds creepy to have a gilfriend wwho "checks up" on what do do on the Internet. I could never handle that kind of snooping.
You certainly seem very "enthusiastic".
I also don't see how you can be "semi" obsessed, you're either obsessed or you're not.
Your worries about your first time are normal so forget about them
I would also advise against romanticizing the LGBT scene or any othrr "scene"
I wish you the best of luck.