Just getting anxious

[jimcrackcorn]

People don't always take the time to experience the various aspects of their sexuality before they settle down with one person. This can be a problem, especially when your bi and have only experienced straight sex.

You want to experiment but your already locked in a relationship, and cheating would only make you feel guilty.

As I see it, there's no easy solution. I would consider all the options and their subsequent consequences (bad & good), and make a decision based on what is best for you and your girlfriend.

As an example:
1. I'd let the fantasy stay as it is, in my head where I can always enjoy it as a wonderful daydream..... Or,
2. Find a way to cheat without your girlfriend finding out,, (which is not my recommendation)
or.
3. Slowly let the relationship dwindle to the point where she kicks you out (this could take years)
or,
4. Tell your girlfriend that you need some space to explore an aspect of your life that is bothering you. Plus find the closest Heartbreak Hotel to live in while she considers which frying pan to hit you over the head with.
or,
5. Call the relationship quits, and go sow your wild oats. Then settle down afterwords.

The first solution is the only one that wouldn't hurt you or your girlfriend. It doesn't take into account that you may still have to deal with this problem in the future if the desire becomes more pronounced.

No easy solution.

Sincerely,
Jim