Have you ever learned a lesson from loving sb. or from the one you love?

[LateBloomer]

They say when you love a person, you will learn a lesson, Now when I look back on the past, it almost like I fell in love with one person each year (averagely), I do not really remember if I learned any lesson from them, up until last March, a person appeared in my life, he was kinda nice, good-looking, we have been friends for a short time, then he ignored me, I am not sure what made him did that, I figured maybe he was disgusted with my gayness. However, I really appreciate about his appearance in my life, because I really learned some lessons from him, it's not anything like " Don't cry over a person that is not worth your tears ". I learned that my life was such a mess and I had been wasting it in a nonsense way, I woke up at 1 pm when I had a day off, I played games, watched TV, then went to sleep again, I never noticed that I was ignorant about a lot of things, I did not try to learn them to make my life better, I did not even try to do something worthier than sleeping and playing, I also learned that I should not consider my life a burden, I used to listen to the sad songs and totally fell in the lyrics, and cried for a half hour about my so-called pathetic tragic life, in the short time that we were friends, I told him that I want to kill myself, I felt hopeless, then he told me life is full of hopes, and now, I would not say that I am a lot better, but at least I'm happier. I really want to befriend with him again. Because he changed my life, made my life better, Colored my world.

Just some thoughts for you.

1) If that saying is true (when you love someone you'll learn something), but you didn't learn anything from those other guys, then maybe you never really loved them.

2) I believe that we learn more about ourselves when in a relationship. And that is a good enough reason to keep trying.

Best,