No mutual attraction

[undercoverforev]

I am in the exact same position that you are in. However, I can honestly and truthfully admit that I am one shallow son of a bitch. I will not date anyone who I am not attracted to.... it's just not going to happen. I can't fake attraction, so tensions will build and come up some time later in the relationship.
Honestly, I don't even know what I want in life anymore. Sometimes, I feel like I want to be in a relationship, and sometimes I feel like I want to just be alone forever. And I NEVER have casual sex or have random hookups with people. It's just now what I do. And as someone mentioned above, DO NOT rush into a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. I, too, learned that one the hard way, after dating a guy who was a drug addict, consistently ditched me to do other things, and eventually cheated on me. So, take your time and wait for Mr. Right. That's what I'm doing... and so far, no luck... but I'd rather be alone than be trampled on by some disgusting whore who feigns interest in a relationship just for a quick fuck.
The worst part of it is (not to sound completely conceited....but I will come across as that way anyway), gay guys check me out so often, and I am NEVER attracted to them. It's really sad. And the ones who are attractive don't check me out. So, I either need to lower my standards, or just be ready for a life of quilting alone in an old cottage.