Complete Life Make Over

[Nick9]

I meant a whole life makeover not just looks, just getting rid of stress and removing negative things from my life. I wasn't expecting a load of sarcasm from members. You know what I'm just going to delete my account because I'm not getting anything out of Gayspeak anymore and instead of advice theres only sarcasm.

Oh, please don't leave. I am sure B.A. actually really cares about you. Otherwise he wouldn't have bothered to answer you. Maybe he even shared part of his life with you, because he is afraid that you may experience the same and he wouldn't want that for you. So, don't feel hurt.

It's hard to express in English what I want to say, but I try.
You need to "turn on the light" inside you. To have the thing that makes other people say: There is SOMETHING about this guy. You don't need them to say: Oh, he is beautiful...
Try to walk with your head up, don't look down. Try to smile more, not just because you want to attract attention of a guy in a bar. Smile even when you are saying goodbye to and old lady in a shop. It will "charge" you with positive energy. The good feeling you start giving to others WILL COME BACK to you.

Because honestly, nobody wants to hang around jealous, sour people.

I was surprised the other day. A shopkeeper who saw me for like five minutes, told me that negative energy was pouring from me in waves. Yeah, I had been sad for months. I just didn't realize how much it showed. It came in sharp contrast with another short talk in different shop years ago. An old lady - stranger to me - came to me in that shop and told me, how good she felt because of my good mood. I was alone in the shop, I didn't talked to anyone and she noticed anyway.
People do notice and if you want them to care, you need to let that "light" on, even when you think that nobody is looking