02-19-2012, 10:15 AM
Hi everyone, thought I'd introduce myself to the community, my friend told me bout this site and I just joined. I'm an easy going guy looking to make new friends and maybe more if you live in the Montreal, Quebec area we're in business. I like to read on occasion, prefer to get read to by audiobooks lol. Music is a huge part of my life, I always have a tune on the brain or am just listening to music. I used to be the singer in a band and really miss it cause my band broke up I've been meaning to get back in the scene but ya know... life kinda happens and ya get distracted. I love writing poetry and used to write lyrics for my old band too. I'm a movie buff and likes my TV too, I'm obsessed with a few shows, I also like to get my game on, I like FPS games, RTS and most RPGs (yes I have a nerdy side as well :tongue. Alright it's about to get more serious :eek:, I'm gonna open up to you guys and paint a picture of how my life is at the moment. Lately I've kinda been in a deep funky depression, I'm not completely OUT yet, only a choice select few know about it and it's really taking a toll on me mentally, living this constant double life and all the lying is draining. I've also been single for far too long I'm getting really lonely, the last time I was with someone was a year and a half ago and it wasn't even serious. I just wanna connect with someone genuine, I'm so over random hook ups and how meaningless they are. To top it all off my family is well... hella religious so they don't approve of being gay at all so I can't turn to them for support and that stings. I'd say my relationships with my family members is rocky at best, I've always gotta walk on eggshells around them. Anyhoo I know my situation could be worse and I just wanna say I'm not fishing for pity I just really needed to get that off my chest....ahhhh feels great to have shared a bit. And if anyone reading this has similar or worse things going for them in their lives and are considering suicide, ending your life no matter how bad you feel isn't worth it. Everyone is unique and has something to offer this world and by offing yourself you're denying the world the chance to see how special you are. Sure there will always be assholes trying to drag you down but you can't let their ugliness take away from all the beauty in this world. There are so many things in this life worth living for, just keep your head up and look towards your bright future. Well I just had to do it didn't I... sorry for going all emo on everyone but I felt that needed to be said. So if anyone feels like chatting hit me up I'm an open book .