02-26-2012, 09:08 PM
Hello I am back. Just had to report back from what happened from november and after, after coming out. My life... has been very hard. My coming out has turned out to be one of the worst experiences yet, as Siberia is a very conservatiev part of a very conservatiev country. My parrents pretty much not made me they're son accourding to law, what that calls, my girl friend kicked me out after a very long relation and put me in jail for 2 mounthes and put restraining orders on me, so I will never be able according to the law to see her and my new born son...
My parents just though it as a joke but as time got more serious they abandoned me for bringing shame to theyre family, and for that being a horrible son and husband and that i have abandoned jesus and its holyness for living with satan.
I never wished any harm to my ex-girlfriend but she was the only one doing any. She told me that I had betraied her and her child and i do not deserv being with her or seing him, only for something so repulsing and unhumane she said. So she put an restraining order on me never to see her or her baby, but i refused it and by that put in jail.
Not much to say about that,except horrible, filed with crazy maniacs and criminals and Me, locked up in a cage without any freedom even to use the bathroom without supervise. All i could think about was my baby.
As i eventualy got out i pretty much had nowhere to turn, my jobb kicked be for being a "Criminal in jail", my parrents abandoned me and i could sertainly not call her my girlfriend any more. i just ride by her one more time and i saw that she had given birth, to my son that i will never be able to see...
With nothing to loose i folowed my Czheckian friend that i have many times gone road trips through europe with back to czheck republic with. It felt so bad to leave everything behind but as said, i had no life left there, no work, no family, no friends, no contacts... He seemed very fine with me being gay and when i got to his family home noone seem to care, as long as i dont start to fuck on everything lol. So funny family. So far ive only lived here 2 weeks tops but everything seem to go better from now on. Although i do not understand very very little of what everyone is saying its going great so far. got a (crappy, but alright) job in a grozery store, got some friends and specially... I got somewhere to sleep and live
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My parents just though it as a joke but as time got more serious they abandoned me for bringing shame to theyre family, and for that being a horrible son and husband and that i have abandoned jesus and its holyness for living with satan.
I never wished any harm to my ex-girlfriend but she was the only one doing any. She told me that I had betraied her and her child and i do not deserv being with her or seing him, only for something so repulsing and unhumane she said. So she put an restraining order on me never to see her or her baby, but i refused it and by that put in jail.
Not much to say about that,except horrible, filed with crazy maniacs and criminals and Me, locked up in a cage without any freedom even to use the bathroom without supervise. All i could think about was my baby.
As i eventualy got out i pretty much had nowhere to turn, my jobb kicked be for being a "Criminal in jail", my parrents abandoned me and i could sertainly not call her my girlfriend any more. i just ride by her one more time and i saw that she had given birth, to my son that i will never be able to see...
With nothing to loose i folowed my Czheckian friend that i have many times gone road trips through europe with back to czheck republic with. It felt so bad to leave everything behind but as said, i had no life left there, no work, no family, no friends, no contacts... He seemed very fine with me being gay and when i got to his family home noone seem to care, as long as i dont start to fuck on everything lol. So funny family. So far ive only lived here 2 weeks tops but everything seem to go better from now on. Although i do not understand very very little of what everyone is saying its going great so far. got a (crappy, but alright) job in a grozery store, got some friends and specially... I got somewhere to sleep and live
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