Suicide... I pray not

[Nick9]

I've given warning signs. Talking about death, talking about my death, how short coming it can be. Withdrawing... But no one seems to notice,

SadSilence, don't feel bad that they don't notice.
I told my mother and my sister: I am thinking about commiting a suicide.
Clear and simple.
And I didn't get any response

I guess it is just ... I don't know... too large, too out of this world, too unimaginable that their brain just skips declaration like this. It takes you enormous amount of energy to give those signs, so you think that they are clear, but people around may not feel that way and they don't notice, or they just try to pretend that nothing is happening, because they are too scared.
Don't let this beaten you.

I'm confessing to something that I probably shouldn't... But I'm going to so someone can know.

You don't need to be careful with us. To be gentle and to give just signs. Scream, if it makes you feel better, tell us all awful things that you are thinking about.
All we ask from you is to listen to us and stay with us

I guess, you are lucky that I can't go to Layton anytime soon I would tackle you to ground with my hug. Just because I remember how I craved the hug during those days and I didn't get any. I guess something in me isn't healed yet. Otherwise you would be safe from me

[zeon]

I would like to say if anyone on gayspeak ever feels they are unable to cope in life with whatever situation please please remember that if your wanting someone to speak to on a 121 basis on a completely neautral basis and have a cry and a ear to listen and a voice to respond back please dont be scared to inbox me because if someone here did end their life and not try to see if me or anyone here could help it would be something that wouldnt be nice to live with....

[Nick9]

zeon....

[zeon]

here ya go nick

its good to give a hug where anyone wants it

Kindest regards

Aunty Zeon x

[Nick9]

Yeah, I know I use this smiley a lot. I think a psychologist would say that it says a lot about me and my problems... It's strange, you know? I thought that hugs were for kids or people madly in love. I guess they are for everyone and if you don't have them, you can suffer, even as a grown up.

SadSilence, I hope there will always be someone who will wrap his or her arm around your shoulder.

[johannes88]

Hi friend,

I've heard your words and i really understand how you've been feeling.

Please, be optimistic about future. That's my sincere advice. Study hard and you'll see that there's a huge world out there filled with opportunities and people who would cherish just by seeing your face every morning.

Please, don't feel discouraged about your present. Think you're privileged for the tools you've been given to succeed. Just be patient and i promise you will discover the wonders of being alive and the purpose of your own existence.

Johannes.

[HollandofFrance]

"Withdrawing..."?ive done that and do that

but im somewhat afraid to comment much

have you seen a doctor about this?

[dfiant]

Yeah, I know I use this smiley a lot. I think a psychologist would say that it says a lot about me and my problems... It's strange, you know? I thought that hugs were for kids or people madly in love. I guess they are for everyone and if you don't have them, you can suffer, even as a grown up.

SadSilence, I hope there will always be someone who will wrap his or her arm around your shoulder.

Hugs are for everyone from anyone, or someone, anyone?

[Prometheus]

Jeez -- Suicidal thoughts, self-injury, unnecessarily in the closet, being committed for it. Ha, sounds like my teenage years to a T. Glad that shit is over now. The campaigns aren't lies... It does get better. : ) Worry a lot less about your gayness and a lot more on all your other qualities that make you better than everyone else. It's a process though, doesn't happen over night -- you wouldn't want it to either, accepting yourself is the most spiritually growing experience you'll probably ever have, besides loving unconditionally. Sometimes you just gotta stare into the mirror until it's sobbing back at you or learn a more appropriate avenue for your emotions than cutting. Those scars don't go away, they really don't. Explaining those isn't fun a decade later, either. Write, smoke some pot, play some starcraft -- we all insist that you exist some more.