03-31-2012, 07:41 AM
Being alone... It feels good. To be able to drown in peace and not have a thousand voices eroding you. Just sit back and watch as you drown, knowing you'll surface to do it again and again and again. But they don't know that, all they see is a 'loner' as they call it sitting minding his own business.
Just concentrate, but on what? They say the grass is greener on the otherside. But it's not, only a fool would believe so.
I'm not rich, I'm not dirt poor, but I'm poor. I have a hard time controlling myself. I speak my mind even if it hurts. People hardly understand me, I like it that way. I'm gay and hate it with a burning passion. I work at the local amusement park during the summer. I'm a swimmer, I'm on a city swimming team and it's the only thing that keeps me sane. Most days I don't have the energy or will to do anything and when I do I put it towards swimming. I complain about everything, even the things that make me happy. I keep my talents a secret so when the time comes I can show all those who thought I had nothing that I have something to share with the world. I have faith in what I do, I have my opinions, I'm stubborn, and rarely tread from my beliefs and opinions. If you don't like me, get the hell over it and go somewhere else because I'm not budging, I've waited patiently, endured a new hell to get where I am and I'm not going without a fight. And I will win.
We raise it up, this offering to end this life. My body lights in new flame.
Just concentrate, but on what? They say the grass is greener on the otherside. But it's not, only a fool would believe so.
I'm not rich, I'm not dirt poor, but I'm poor. I have a hard time controlling myself. I speak my mind even if it hurts. People hardly understand me, I like it that way. I'm gay and hate it with a burning passion. I work at the local amusement park during the summer. I'm a swimmer, I'm on a city swimming team and it's the only thing that keeps me sane. Most days I don't have the energy or will to do anything and when I do I put it towards swimming. I complain about everything, even the things that make me happy. I keep my talents a secret so when the time comes I can show all those who thought I had nothing that I have something to share with the world. I have faith in what I do, I have my opinions, I'm stubborn, and rarely tread from my beliefs and opinions. If you don't like me, get the hell over it and go somewhere else because I'm not budging, I've waited patiently, endured a new hell to get where I am and I'm not going without a fight. And I will win.
We raise it up, this offering to end this life. My body lights in new flame.