Masturbation Addiction

[Jason74]

Well I am sure that everyone knows my story by now about being single for the last 8+ years and have been working seasonal jobs for the last two years. Well my gay life was pretty non-existent in South Dakota, Vermont, Wyoming and Utah. Yet now I am in California and I am only like 3 hours from San Francisco and want so badly to take the drive and just get hooked up. I guess there is a town that is like an hour away from here that is like near Sonora that is very gay friendly and they have gay owned resorts and places that gay men frequent in the summer.

Well I can't seem to stop masturbating to gay porn, ie photos and sometimes videos when my straight roommate isn't around. It is like I am so horny that I just can't stop thinking about guys and its not even the guys that work here which I really am never that attracted to guys that i work with. Usually it takes me a few days to get over this hump but its not happening this time and I feel like once I do get the chance to fool around with a guy that I won't produce much cum, lol.

I bet I will be fine and will cum alot and if the sex is amazing I am sure there will be no problems at all in that department. I really want to be bottomed which I haven't done in years but really do not have anywhere to practice with a prized dildo that I have tucked away just for practice unless I take it into the shower with me (which isn't a bad idea since thats the only place I can get some privacy).

Its just crazy that after 8 years I really want to have sex now! Is it because I am so close to SF and know that SF is like one of the gay central of the US? I am looking forward to Pride in June and I think it will be a great time and I am shy as it is and want to find a way to make friends in SF in advance but I am not sure how to go about doing that since I am 3 hours away one way from SF.

Well my emotions and arousal are all over the place right now, lol

[jamiebfd]

mate.... take a week away from work...go to SF and have some fun.
get laid... get drunk.... live it up.
8 years is too long :0
how do you manage lol.
get yourself out there and find a georgous guy to fck xD

[dlboy53]

I find I do that a lot too. What a sad life I live. lol

[LateBloomer]

I can really sense your frustration Jason, having read your posts from the last few days. I went thru a four year "dry spell" right around your age. I think I was between 37 and 41.

As 41 approached I sorta felt an looming mid-life crisis bearing down on me, and I resolved to get it all sorted out. Well here I am a couple years later and feeling a little more ironed out, but still kinda "tense" too.

You know, there's one way to look at all of this (thru rose colored glasses perhaps). But damn it, it's HEALTHY to have these urges. It means your mind, your body and your spirit are working the way they're designed.

If you wrote us that you'd rather sit in a cabin alone, pulling the wings off of flies, smoking pot and eating ice cream, well, THEN I would worry!



I'm not worried about you though. You just need to get your life organized to the point where you can put yourself in a community where you can have healthy physical and emotional contacts with guys.

Is this frustration of yours a harbinger of a looming mid-life crisis for YOU?

I don't know.

Just go one day at a time, but try to keep a longer view too, and make steps to put yourself where you NEED TO BE.

Good luck.

[gayboyindia24]

well even i feel the same way like you feel.Even I can't divert my mind from sex and keep watching gay porn.Even if I try to avoid it but i can't because even if you watch tv there would be men,even if you go outside to divert your,there are men around...But for the past few days i have been trying to get a hold of mine thinking that this would not work if continue to live like this,what will happen to my career, my studies, my responsibilites..But i don't know for how long i am going to hold this again i am gonna fall weak.You the main problem is the internet,just as it helps you same way it exploits you...can't help it we are human beings but I don't know how did you manage not to have sex for 8yrs that too being in America.I always thought you people are advance and sex is not a problem for you peple and moreover you look presentable..

[Jason74]

Well I can't take a week off from work and go to SF because I just started my job here and I actually can't afford to do. I am already going to be going to SF for 3 days in June for pride so I am sure I can find some action while I am there for that. If I can't then there is something wrong with me.

I don't think that its a mid life crisis for me cause the only thing that I really desire more than anything is contact with other men that are gay. I just feel like I can't relax when I am around straight guys or even women. I am not two different people around either but I just feel like I am more comfortable around other gay guys. I mean I want to have some hot intimate sex with another guy, yet I would rather get to know him first rather than to just strip and have hot intimate sex even though thats what I really want to do.

Its like for the years that I was and am single I just never had the balls to go to the club and hook up or anything. I have always not gone that direction and stayed away from that even though deep inside I wanted to do it. Also the majority of my relationships where I have had a boyfriend I have been the top and in ways I wanted to be a bottom but the guys that I were with enjoyed being the bottom.

I see straight couples together and they look so happy and I just want that with another guy. Well maybe I am just in a funk right now and I am sure I will get out of it soon.

[spencer]

I'm experiences something very similar. I think the answer is this: It's time to get laid.

The issue at least for me is finding a partner to have sexitime with. My circumstances are a bit..unique, and craigslist scares me.

[Deryn]

I'm having a bit of the reverse problem right now. My sex drive has been dying out pretty recently and I went from 1-2 times a day down to a couple times a week.

The reason its a problem is that if I go too long... well over spring break we went camping and there were no tents allowed. I always sleep in the tent. Way more privacy than a camper. So with compounded family always there and it being to cold to go for a *walk* in the woods, I just didn't bother. Third day, probably about a week without doing it, I came in my shorts in my sleep. First wet dream since puberty. I really hope I wasn't making any noise during.

[mrk2010]

I go by my motto, once a day keeps the doctor away ;-)

[Jason74]

Well when masturbation losts its fun, its fucking crazy, lol